The Shortest Day of the Year

Shortest day of the year 2015

As I’m writing this, it’s 4:30pm and it is dark. A quick Google just informed me that today, the sun set at 3:53pm. And from now on? This gets better. For 6 months anyway.

I’ve actually really been looking forward to today as the winter blues have hit me for the first time this year and they’ve knocked me pretty hard. There have been times when I’ve been saying to my friends that I feel a bit broken. Things I’m usually good at, I’ve struggled with. We’re not talking major life things and in no way am I comparing this to the mental health issues that I know so many people struggle with at this time of year, but it’s the little things. Things like being organised, remembering to buy food for breakfast, sleeping past 5am.

But today is a day of change. It’s the turning point that things are about to get better as the days get longer and each morning, the sky will be a little brighter. I’ve spent a long time trying to convince myself that this time of year means you get to appreciate every hour of sunlight and that dark mornings mean you get the chance to watch the sun rise and a new day start. But now, I’m grateful for the change. I’m grateful for time off work to rest and recharge and get excited for new projects in the new year.

Last year, I feel like I achieved one hell of a lot and I finished 2014 feeling pretty content and without the desire to do anything really different. 2015 has also been one hell of a year for different reasons and whilst I have a lot to be grateful for, I can already feel that ‘I want to be better’ motivation coming back. Right now, New Year’s Eve seems too far away when I’m ready to make changes and this is something I’m really excited for.

Don’t get me wrong, I have no ground breaking plans to drop everything to travel the world and ‘find myself’ (#namaste). LOL, can you even imagine me backpacking when I won’t even spend a night in a tent. I also know that I’m lucky to be in a job I adore and that I’m surrounded by fantastic people both personally and professionally. But I’m ready to do better. I want my blog to be better, I want my work to be better and I want to be an improved version of myself.

Basically, I want to be Beyonce. Is that really too much to ask? Also, it really annoys me that Microsoft Word doesn’t acknowledge Beyonce as a word and it has the red squiggly line under it. Microsoft, sort out your priorities.

In all seriousness, I want 2016 to be the year I nail it. I want what I do at work to be stuff that other people look at and think ‘shit that’s good’ (or just, that working in social media doesn’t mean I tweet for a living, either/or). I want my blog to be something that people come back to because people want to read what I have to say. I want to be fitter, healthier and stronger.

Can you get emojis into blog posts? I feel like I need a sassy hair flick right here.

So, the end of 2015 is looking like it’s going to be pretty fabulous (or at very least heavy on mince pies and festive cheer), but I’m pretty determined to be starting 2016 without even a hint of January blues.

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